Monday, January 2, 2012

Hey Everyone!

Phew, it's been a while.  Obviously because I've been eating crap for 6 months.  :-|. I feel pretty crappy right now, my clothes don't fit well, and I'm just uncomfortable, I want to start losing again. Last year was a HUGE roller coaster for me, and apparently I turn to food when I am sad, and when I'm happy. The first 6 months of last year were horrible, the worst of my life by a mile. The last 6 months, were pretty great, like a complete 180º, and now I am in a really good place. Great new job with great co-workers, new apartment, new car, it really can't be much better. I'm trying to get a hold on things now. Maybe if I start talking about it again, people will hold me accountable.


I'm going to get a fill later this month, so I'm starting off by getting back on a low calorie diet. I'm pretty scared to be honest. My doctor scares me, the fact that I've gained weight scares me, and the fact that it's been so long since I've eaten properly for my band scares me. I'm looking at my old food logs and trying to get back to that. So far so good, even though it's been one meal haha, and I'm going to exercise after I type this. I bought the Extreme Makeover Weight Loss DVD, might do that, if anyone can motivate me it's hottie trainer Chris Powell haha. (BTW it's a great show, watch it when it comes back)


I'm looking to deal with the mental side of all of this, anyone have any suggestions? I'm kinda weary of doing a support group. I don't want to sit in a circle with 10 women talking about what I ate today, and how I was so tempted to eat those brownies, but I resisted!!  lol... Are there psychologists that deal with WLS, or dieting exclusively? Where would I even find that?


So to my bandsters that still read the blogs, how are you doing? 


-Heather

5 comments:

  1. welcome back! and the best therapy and support i can suggest is blogging! reading, commenting, communicating with other people that are going through the EXACT same things you are! We've all been there at one time or another.

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  2. Yes, there are therapists that deal specifically with food/weight issues! ask your doctor or if you don't like him much, maybe one of his nurses, for a referral. Also, as obnoxious as support groups are they do work. They are also great places to get referrals. Way to go on realizing you have work to do and that you're doing something about it!

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  3. Hey Heather, like you I had surgery in Dec 2010 (12/29/10 to be exact). When my 1 year bandiversary passed a few weeks ago I was so upset that I had "only" lost 57lbs. I hadnt lost a pound since Sept. I felt like a failure seeing everyone on LBT who lost 70 or more lbs. I went for a fill yesterday and the Dr gave me a total pep talk. I am right on track having lost bascially a lb a week for the year. I look and feel better than I had in years. But man, the holidays did me in! I totally pigged out and all my good habits went out the window. This is so hard for all of us, its a constant work in progress. Please be proud of your accomplishments and keep up updated so we all hold each other accountable. ;)

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  4. I was wondering how you are doing now--I got banded 2 yrs ago and havent had a fill--but now I think I need one as I can eat more and always feel hungary--I had gotten a fill the first year and had to have it right back out as I couldnt eat anything without it coming back up..dread calling the dr's office and asking for a fill-we only have a once a month support group here--just need a little advice and pep talk to get back on track..I've lost 85lbs but have gained 8-10 back..thanks, JUDY

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