Sunday, March 20, 2011


I tried on several pairs of jeans at Macy's today, Size 18 and they fit! (didn't buy them but still! woo hoo). I also tried a shirt in a 1x and it was way to big. 

Mom, if you are so inclined it was these jeans: INC Jeans hahaha

Yesterday, I did some shopping at Lane Bryant, and everything was just too big in all the sizes I grabbed, had to do a 2nd trip to the dressing room haha. I tried on some denim jegging capris... still unsure how I feel about those... I think I looked less like a sausage in the capri version, but still... What is Lane Bryant's fascination with jeggings, skinny jeans, and tank tops.. I don't know about everyone else, but being overweight those are the LAST things I want to wear. I want sleeves to cover my arm fat (not tiny cap sleeves or tanks), I want jeans that are fitted, but not skin tight all the way down. I mean some of the tanks and stuff are cute.. but I always like wearing ONE shirt. I'm not one for a tank, cami, sweater, jacket, scarf.. I don't like it, and it's always warm here! Maybe when it's 100ยบ will I wear just a tank.

LOL random rant... but yay for smaller clothes!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Low Carb..

Anyone do this?

I'm semi trying to go lower carb. Maybe not LOW carb. But I eat a lot of carbs, and I feel like I should cut it back. I tried yesterday, but I felt like crap, and I was really hungry after lunch. I tried again today, and by lunch I felt icky and had a headache so I had some bread with my lunch. Maybe I should have some carbs in the AM and less after that? I had eggs with mushrooms and tomatoes for breakfast with cottage cheese.. I'm following this diet I saw in a magazine, low carb plus pro-biotic cottage cheese or yogurt. I'm satisfied with the food I can eat, but I don't feel great. Hmm. I wanna kick it up slightly so I can meet my Idol finale goal. I have 27 lbs to go and 68 days to do it.

Other than that, I'm doing good. I ate fairly bad on my trip to Seattle and Newport Beach, but I didn't gain any weight so that's good phew, probably all the walking I did! (this pizza I had in Seattle was so good it would be worth gaining a pound LOL!!)

I went to Universal Studios today! That was fun. Lots of walking! Took some pictures, and I can tell even in my photos that I am smaller :D and it feels good to fit better in the rides!

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
I can't think of anything else! So goodnight all :)


Wednesday, March 2, 2011


Yay! Down 40lbs, crazy. I can't even tell you the last time I was this weight... maybe 3 or 4 years ago. 6 more pounds and I will weight what I did in 9th grade haha. 30 more pounds till my Idol goal in May. Ahh hopefully I can make it. Going to have to cut back a little bit to do that I think.

I hurt my thigh soooo bad last week! I have no idea how either. One day I was getting up from my desk and the pain was excruciating! Figured it would get better, but it didn't. So I went to my doctor and she said I probably pulled the muscle and gave me an anti inflammatory, which seems to be helping, it feels a lot better today. It's a little annoying not being able to exercise though.. even though I hate it, it does help with my weight loss.

Sorry, I haven't blogged much, frankly, I don't know what to post.. any ideas on what you'd like to hear or know about the lapband or my diet or whatever?!

A question to you guys, the fills, are they for restriction, or hunger control? For me, I have 5.5ccs in a 11cc band right now, and I can go 4 or 5 hours without a meal, easily. Now sure, obviously my brain wants food, but my body isn't hungry. But I wouldn't say I have much "restriction" I'm starting to think that restriction and the sweet spot is a myth. Obviously I can't eat as much as I could pre-banding, but I can certainly eat enough to completely sabotage myself and gain weight. I think if I got another fill, I would just have trouble eating (puking and getting stuck)... I don't see that it would make me full on less food. A ton of people seem to think it will stop them from eating if they get enough fluid in their bands, but I really just don't think that is the case. Maybe it depends how you see the band working for you? For me, I see it as controlling my hunger, and I do the rest of the work. I wish it did more, but I really think that is what it is supposed to do.

I'm going to Seattle next weekend!!!! I love it there, it's so awesome! I've been a couple of times to see Blake Lewis and some friends back in the day, but then I fell in love with the city, it's so great, now it's one of my favorite vacation spots! I love the artsy vibe, and everything is so chill there. Let me take a minute to recommend something, if you have never bid on a hotel on, do it!! Such great deals. I paid $71 a night for my 4 star hotel, the retail value for those nights is $191 a night. Can't beat it! I'm such a deal hound when it comes to travel. I refuse to pay too much. If I spend less on that stuff, I can spend more money on fun stuff!

Pic from my last trip to Seattle in 2009 :)