Phew, it's been a while. Obviously because I've been eating crap for 6 months. :-|. I feel pretty crappy right now, my clothes don't fit well, and I'm just uncomfortable, I want to start losing again. Last year was a HUGE roller coaster for me, and apparently I turn to food when I am sad, and when I'm happy. The first 6 months of last year were horrible, the worst of my life by a mile. The last 6 months, were pretty great, like a complete 180º, and now I am in a really good place. Great new job with great co-workers, new apartment, new car, it really can't be much better. I'm trying to get a hold on things now. Maybe if I start talking about it again, people will hold me accountable.
I'm going to get a fill later this month, so I'm starting off by getting back on a low calorie diet. I'm pretty scared to be honest. My doctor scares me, the fact that I've gained weight scares me, and the fact that it's been so long since I've eaten properly for my band scares me. I'm looking at my old food logs and trying to get back to that. So far so good, even though it's been one meal haha, and I'm going to exercise after I type this. I bought the Extreme Makeover Weight Loss DVD, might do that, if anyone can motivate me it's hottie trainer Chris Powell haha. (BTW it's a great show, watch it when it comes back)
I'm looking to deal with the mental side of all of this, anyone have any suggestions? I'm kinda weary of doing a support group. I don't want to sit in a circle with 10 women talking about what I ate today, and how I was so tempted to eat those brownies, but I resisted!! lol... Are there psychologists that deal with WLS, or dieting exclusively? Where would I even find that?
So to my bandsters that still read the blogs, how are you doing?