Day 2

Haha, apparently I pee'd out 6 pounds yesterday \o/ I'll take it. I know probably just water weight but still sounds pretty exciting.


My verdict on these drinks, I really don't like Jello, Myoplex lite is good, the various powdered shakes aren't as good because it's grainy and frothy, I like Sugar Free Grape Kool-Aid, and I LOVE chicken bullion. It actually really hits the spot. I'm still a bit confused because they said I can't have milk products before the surgery, but all the protein shakes have it some kinda milk protein in it. Except this icky Isopure I'm drinking right now, which is like fruit punch.


Yesterday was hard man. It's just weird to not eat any food. I was a little depressed about it. You know the whole doom and gloom mentality OHH IM NEVER GONNA EAT XYZ AGAIN. But, for the most part I'm ok. I guess this will make me that much more grateful for food. After the surgery I can have more normal things like tomato soup and pudding and things so that should help. 


I went to see the doctor, yesterday, just saw the nurse, and I still don't know what time my surgery is at, but I got some prescriptions for pain and nausea for after my surgery. 


Hanging in there,
Heather

Liquid Diet Day 1

Hello!


First I want to thank all of you for the kind e-mails and comments on my last post, that made me feel good :). Good to have a support group.


So I had a good weekend of eating haha. Had my "last meal" at Ruth Chris Steak House on Saturday, which was delicious! Also had my favorite Cheesy Mac & Rib from The Grilled Cheese Truck for lunch. I think I got all my favorite things out of my system. I started my liquid diet this morning. Not too bad so far. I'm not hungry.. just trying to keep my mind occupied so I don't think about food!


I had fun blending up my protein shake with my nifty new stick blender. It tasted kind of gross, but it's doable. I like the pre-mixed ones better, but it was hard to find ones that had the correct nutrition I needed. Also chewable vitamins are not pleasant either! Haha, but I got to eat Flinstones which made me excited.


Going to my last doctors appointment today to see what they have to say, and find out the time and place of my surgery. Hopefully it all goes smoothly, since I've been trying to get it all worked out since AUGUST. 


I weighed myself this morning so I can track my weight loss, I think I will post the pounds lost, instead of my weight here. I just don't feel like telling ya'll my weight! Well, maybe later, but not now.


Thanks again for all the kind words,
-Heather

Hello!

So I decided to start a blog about my weight loss journey. I am getting a Lapband on 12/13/10. I am getting prepared for the surgery. I've had all the tests and the lessons and everything. Hopefully everything goes as planned since it's been pushed back a number of times. I am a little scared, but I think I can do this. Hell, I've done EVERYTHING else to lose weight in my life, and I am completely burned out on all those things, so I think this will be a good tool to help me lose weight. I ideally want to lose about 120 pounds, then see what I feel like at that weight. 


It is totally depressing reading the guide about how I get to eat pureed beans and various mushy things for a month, gross! But, I guess I will probably lose a good amount of weight in that first month, which will give me the incentive to continue. I just did my last "real" grocery shopping yesterday, and that made me sad, and more scared. But, crap, food is expensive, I will have much more money now to stalk Kris Allen and various other American Idols hahaha.


I start my liquid diet on Monday the 6th. So let's see how that goes. 2 full weeks of NO FOOD AT ALL. Sounds awful, I'm sure much complaining will ensue. I am pretty good with "rules" and things, so I'm thinking overall having the band will help. Because I won't want to cheat, and get sick by eating the wrong things.


Working out is going to be the hard part. I hate it! Who likes it? Who wants to run around and be out of breath, and get sweaty, nothing enjoyable about that, I did it for years and years and hated every single second of it. Then I always feel like it's not fair, I have super skinny friends that don't work out for hours and hours a day. Ugh, jealous!  Hopefully I can get into it, and maybe drag some of my friends and family out with me to go hiking or to a class or something.


I guess I'm a little worried I will feel weird when I lose weight. Since I won't be able to eat to cope with things anymore? I mean I don't really have any "issues" in my life, but I'm afraid I'm going to find one when I'm skinny! Though, all my troubles and anxiety I have now, probably has to do unconsciously with my weight. Hopefully my panic attacks will die completely, and hopefully I can score a great new job with out discrimination. Also it will be good to fit comfortably in a movie theatre seat, or an amusement park ride, or an airplane. And to buy clothes that fit comfortably, and that are cute and cheap! Things you skinny people probably take for granted everyday. 


Ok! so I got that out there... please feel free to comment and give me some support because I am going to need it.


-Heather